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Sometimes, I can’t help but think that the miracle of life isn’t the birth of a newborn child. Yes, it’s absolutely amazing that from just two tiny little cells can come a wonderful newborn child. But the real miracle, I think, is that humans can go through so much heartbreak, so much stress and struggle and still manage to survive and even triumph in life.
I’m finally realizing how amazing it is that I survived so long with an eating disorder. How amazing it is that on only ten percent of the intake that I needed, I still managed to accomplish so much, find friends and a boyfriend that love me… It’s amazing that I managed to survive.
Now it’s time to stop simply surviving and start truly living.

Brené Brown   (via nagging)

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I want breakfast. You said you were going to start losing weight today. But I should probably eat breakfast. You’re eating with your Aunt tonight and you don’t know what you’re eating. You can’t eat anything until then. I can’t just not eat all day. You’re not going to eat all day.

Coffee in hand, black with Truvia.

ED: 1 Meg: 0.

invisible-battles:

Jessica’s Battle - The full submission.

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“You deserve more than this battle, everybody does…because everybody deserves life.”

I feel like good epiphanies are actually bad for me, because every time I have one I spiral to hell.

I ate dinner tonight. As little as possible.

That stupid app told me that I’d be significantly smaller in 5 weeks if I continue to eat like this. A number that I would kill for.

I’m promising myself that I’ll at least be honest with my boyfriend and my friend. If they ask, I will tell them honestly how I am doing. I can’t promise that I’ll be honest with anyone else because honestly… I want this. But I will not ruin a friendship or relationship over this. I won’t allow that to happen.

Hate this.

So yesterday, I had an epiphany. I have a lot of them and they seem to fade within a day or two. I’m hoping this one sticks. I’m really tired of the disorder. I want to be free, to live normally, to be happy, to see the good things.

I can’t do that with the disorder.

Now, despite this epiphany, yesterday wasn’t a good day food wise. I had only had muscle milk and a skinny iced latte come 10 last night. When my boyfriend asked what I’d eaten when I met up with him after work, he was disappointed. We went to IHOP and I had pancakes.

It’s frustrating because it’s not like I’m saying “I’m not going to eat today.” It’s like… I forget, or I don’t think about it enough or I think about it too much to the point where I think I ate something but in reality, decided to pass on it.

I didn’t do well Thursday either. I just want to get back on track, figure out how to do this the right way.

I don’t want to struggle with this anymore. I understand it will always be something I deal with, but I don’t want it to be my life. I don’t want people to have to worry. I don’t want to have to worry.

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theloveyourselfchallenge:

This is how ruthless eating disorders are. Do not allow your eating disorder to take away anymore of your happiness and joy. You are deserving of the place you have in this world. Start fighting and get your life back. You can do this, I believe in you. <3

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